Day one back on Oahu
I sit here wondering......why? Why am I here? Why am I even unpacking? What is my soul driven purpose in life? Does anyone even hear me? And if they do are they even listening? What else have I have recieved to learn from? That to many coincdences are no longer considered a coincidence and to let go and feel within. To know that I am where I belong. And that everything will be ok. And to remember that its ok to be alone. That I also went through very similar circumtances at the same age. I guess thats why its affecting me harder as I am reliving the heartbreaking experience again. It amazes me the programs that we allow into our lives with our beliefs system and that we let it take over our concsioues and subconscious minds and how it becomes reality. I realize the best thing for me to do is be there for my precious daughter. Its ok, I've been alone before and for the majority of my life. But with my best friend, my daughter I never have to feel alone with the connection we share. I have been through many tough times in my life and know who was there for my though it all. The good the bad, the ups and the downs. The highest points and my lowest. Through my darkest hours and my incarceration. This time is no different and this to shall pass. I know that no matter what I will always be there for me and her and to not give up. And to constantly remind myself to not seek happiness in others and that happiness lies within.......finally that life is not about chasing money, it's about following your dreams!
